July 31st, 2007 -SAM at The Knitting Factory

There is nothing like being onstage. The anxiety you feel before you go on and the rush you feel when you are on stage. Time seems to stand still for me when I am singing. Just recently my band SAM played at The Knitting Factory in Hollywood. I love playing at this venue. The acoustics are great and the sound just travels everywhere. I can honestly say that I have worked very hard to have better command of my vocals on stage it gives me more confidence and it makes it really enjoyable onstage. This is the first real gig that we have played and I was pretty satisfied with it. Now if we would have played at a better time slot it would have been alot sweeter, but beggars can't be chosers!! HAHA. ROCK AND ROLL BABY!!

ALL I CAN DO-POEM#1

ALL I CAN DO IS SMELL YOUR CLOTHES BECAUSE I WISH YOU WERE HERE
ALL I CAN DO IS LOOK AT PICTURES OF SOMETHING THAT ONCE WAS
ALL I CAN DO IS HANG ON TO WHAT ONCE STOOD
THE IRONY IS THAT YOU ARE STILL HERE

YOU ARE SOMEWHERE WHERE YOU CAN NO LONGER TOLERATE TO HEAR MY WORDS
SOMEWHERE WHERE YOU CHOOSE TO BE FAR FROM MY TOUCH
YOU WALK RIGHT THROUGH ME EVERYDAY
MY VOICE ARE JUST ECHO’S IN YOUR HEAD

NOTHING THAT I DO SEEMS RIGHT IN YOUR WORLD
U SEARCH FOR PETTY MISTAKES TO CLAIM YOUR JUSTIFICATIONS
THERE IS NO OTHER SOLUTION THEN TO BLAME ME FOR YOUR WRONG’S

LIVING THIS WAY IS A TOXIC CONSUMPTION
SLOWLY EATING AWAY AT ANYTHING THAT REMAINED
IT IS VENOM THAT FLOWS THROUGH YOU BUT JUST WON’T LEAVE

ALL I CAN DO IS NOTHING. NOTHING IS ALL I HAVE
I HAVE AND I TRIED I SWEAR I TRIED
BUT WHERE WERE YOU IN ALL OF THESE TRY’S?
BEING ALONE IS NOT SO FAR
ALONE IS WHAT I AM YET YOU ARE STILL HERE.

Friendships are Golden

Just recently I made a decision to part ways with someone that was very dear to me. It was not an easy thing to do as this person was someone very dear to me and will always be. I have grown so much in these past few years emotionally, mentally and I feel that the good times are just beginning. I refuse to dwell on the negative like alot of people do. You know, the ol hum and drum of " I have been through so much"! Yeah , well so has the rest of the world! What's new?

I also refuse to surround myself with people that can not respect me or my opinions. Friends should be able to talk about anything.
Definition of a friend is:a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter. Found that in the dictionary. On that note I would like to say that I feel that friendships are not disposable but bad attitudes are. Life is too short for bad attitudes and besides getting angry just ages you more.

30's compared to the 20's-Decades of my life

I never thought I would say this but I am enjoying this point in my life. The way I see and do things have definitely slowed down significantly. I feel like someone handed me a good pair of reading glasses and now I can actually see things in front of me. Looking back my 20's seemed like such a blur. I know they were fun that is all (ha-ha).

There is a comfort knowing that at this age it seems like my life has just begun. The friends that you thought were friends are not around but the ones that are stick around for important moments in your life. In my 20's the night flew by so fast that I did not have enough time to appreciate conversations or moments. The next day I was too tired to remember. Oh well, the next day do it all over again. Now a get together with a friend is golden and time seems to be gradual.

I know that I am a sensitive soul but now I feel that it's been turned up a few notches. My younger years were so feisty and and anti so many things.

I am more appreciative of what I have then of what I do not. I was pursuing love in my 20's and I was lucky enough to find it. Out of that love 2 beautiful children came. I feel more beautiful then ever because I am now comfortable in the skin that I was given. This is me, this is really me. It's all good. Besides 30 is the new 20 and women are taking better care of themselves nowadays.

I think black and white, the way I see it is you either get better as you grow older and you age like a fine wine or you get worse like an opened bottle of soda. You lose your fizz. I am opting for the fine wine. Cheers to a great life!!

ALL GOOD THINGS MUST COME TO END

Ahhh yes back to beautiful reality after romping around the city of lights like untamed children. Vegas thank you for showing us such a good time! So it's off on the road and back to our homes, but keep looking at the road straight ahead and just know that we will be right behind you on another adventure and more stories to tell. Until then.

TUESDAY -TIME TO GO HOME

Tuesday was very mellow, we checked out and drove over to the Wynn hotel for a delicious lunch in the patio overlooking a beautiful pool situated in a breath taking garden.

MONDAY IN VEGAS

We got in to our hotel at 6 passed out and woke up around noon. We put our swimwear on and headed over to the Hardrock Hotel and Casino for a club that they have in their giant pool called Relax. My hubby opted to skip on this one and head on to the poker tables for a few hours. What a concept, a huge pool, a huge sound system and great dj's, lots of liquour and everyone in their swim wear in 90 something heat. Intense!

LADIES AND GENTLEMAN THE SHOW IS OVER!!

Just as quick as we got our third wind to go to an after party our party batteries had no more juice for the rest of the morning. We caught a cab and our cab driver named Stan was the nicest man. We had a craving of Tacos at 5:am and really tacos at that time is just unheard of. Yet Stan the cab driver was quick to the rescue and he found us a Taco joint and tacos we had. Let me tell you after some serious partying 50 cent tacos are like fine dining. Finger licking and all with some hot sauce ofcourse.

STILL GOING STRONG IN VEGAS!!

It's probaly getting close to about 4 am now which will mean the bar will be closed. Yet Vegas does not sleep so there is still a party after the party. So what is the objective when you go to Vegas? Hmm, let me think, DROP SOME MONEY, DRINK LIKE A SAILOR, AND DANCE LIKE A FOOL!! Yeah, I am alright with that.

Getting down at 2:30 am in Sin City(Continuation)

One hour and a half later of getting ready we are ready to go to the Stratosphere as our drinking time is limited until 4:00 am. So we rush on over to Polly Esther's which consists of 4 different decades of dance music. The 70's, 80's,90's and 00's. My husband and I prefer the 80's room.

VIVA LAS VEGAS!!

Road trips are always fun when you are in good company and your road trip music is just right. This year my husband Alex turned 35 on May 25th. I asked him what he wanted to do this year and he said " Let's go to Vegas baby"! Well, you won't pull my leg twice when you say VEGAS. I hit up a few friends here and there 3 weeks in advance to see who was available for some serious fun. My dear friend Berenice and her fiancee Eric agreed to share the festivities. It just so happened that Eric and Alex share the same birthday so even better! Maris Berenice's sis also came for the party bus. And off we go!! We drove up to Vegas and arrived at about 1:00 am and not a moment too soon. Sin City is calling us to romp in its bright playground.